Response

Over the past few weeks many people have commented on how can I stay positive - it must be hard. Do you not get depressed?

My response is this. I have had kidney problems my whole life and thus firstly know no difference. Since I was a little child it has been bred into my to be positive and to get on with it. I have seen people in much worse scenarios than me and I see them each time I go to hospital - this makes me feel stronger. I have always had good family support and the mind that has enabled me to switch off negative feelings - negative feelings I believe spiral down and down. In my opinion they are bad for health.

When I was a child I was in hospital for a long time and spent many hours alone on a bed with numerous machines attached to me. I was close to dying - a number of kids died around me. I came through that with a very clear memory (probably a self defence memory) what is the worst that can to yourself? You die. I am not sure that this is correct now - worst things can happen and perhaps death is the ultimate escape?

Before people start wondering I am not thinking that I am going to die soon. I am just trying to explain my feelings to people who ask the question? Do you not get depressed and down?


Ps if anyone who works with or on Rituximab is reading this I would be very interested in talking with you. Please leave a comment and I will get back to you. It regards my current treatment

Purpose of the blog "Specific topics"

I am getting into writing this blog and feeling it could be a very rewarding experience. I am going to add some discipline and try and tackle different topics each week. These topics will be related to my thinkings on the medical treatment, my health and keeping happy. I feel this will allow me to learn and to be more coherent in my blog. I will try and undertake research around the topic and note it hear. At the end of each week I will try and put together resume of that topic.

I will set the following topics.

1. What is happiness. What does the research say. What are my thinkings. How can we achieve it, why do we strive for it?

2. Religion and health including death.

3. Transplantion. Where it stands at present. What are the hopes. How do patients see the future?

I will try and think of other topics. If you have any to suggest please comment